...and like all the dumb-heads in this world I want to cry out loud at the top of my voice to say a few words, in silence. Yes. Yes. There goes my irony.
Head down. Hands in my pocket. Defeated, unsung hero. Plans in my mind. Loads of them. Closed fists. Determined. Only to realise it's futile.
Once I'm through with a job, there is no single force in this world, that can stop me from achieving what I want.
I look back, and realise why did the clairvoyant smile at me that day...as I feel a chill and shivering in myself.
This all...was written. And what is worse, I fell in the trap. Knowingly.
- March 31st, '12.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Friday, March 23, 2012
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday Soumyo. Hopefully I am the first and only person to wish you. Pray to God that this year ahead brings a lot of good news for you. A lot of positives, and several new reasons to live life better way.
Take care. Be honest. And stay true to your heart. :)
This was my last year's wish to you. And it doesn't change this year either. Stay honest. Be true to your heart. One day, you will shine.
PS: I have hid the birthday update from social profile. Now it's the lone me wishing you.
Take care. Be honest. And stay true to your heart. :)
This was my last year's wish to you. And it doesn't change this year either. Stay honest. Be true to your heart. One day, you will shine.
PS: I have hid the birthday update from social profile. Now it's the lone me wishing you.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
ভালো থাকিস।
আজ মনটা ভালো নেই। মানে বাস্তবিকই ভালো নেই। আমি জানি মাঝে মাঝেই আমি এখানে, মানে নিজের ব্লগে বলে থাকি, যে 'I am sad.' কিন্তু আজ জীবনটাকে কিরকম আলাদা, পানসে লাগছে। মনে হচ্ছে তৃতীয় কোনও মানুষের চোখ দিয়ে নিজেকে দেখছি। একটা অদ্ভুত শূণ্যতা। আমি ভালোবাসার অযোগ্য। ভালোবাসা পাওয়ার অযোগ্য। লক্ষ্য অর্জনে অসক্ষম। অদ্ভুত এই জীবন। অদ্ভুত আমি। অদ্ভুত আমার জীবন।
মাঝে মাঝে সব কিছু কিরকম virtual লাগে। এত লিখেছি...আজ মনে হচ্ছে সব ডায়রীগুলো বের করে ছিঁড়ে টুকরো টুকরো করে ফেলে দিই বাইরে। মানুষ এত নিষ্ঠুর কি করে হয়? উফফ। ভগবান। কেন? আমিই কেন?
কি আর বলি... আর লিখতেও ইচ্ছে করছে না। আর এই লেখা একটা অভিশাপ। শুধুই কাঁটার মতন ব্যাথা দেয়।
ছাই। কি লিখতে কি লিখছি।
ভালোবাসা একটা অভিশাপ। নেশার মত ঘাড়ে চেপে বসে। জীবনের একটাই আক্ষেপ রয়ে গেল। সব নেশাই জয় করলাম। ভালোবাসাকে জয় করতে পারলাম না। আমাকে নিয়ে ছিনিমিনি খেলে চলে গেল। আমার কঙ্কাল পড়ে আছে। আমি হাসছি। হাহা।
ভালো থাকিস।
সৌম্য।
মাঝে মাঝে সব কিছু কিরকম virtual লাগে। এত লিখেছি...আজ মনে হচ্ছে সব ডায়রীগুলো বের করে ছিঁড়ে টুকরো টুকরো করে ফেলে দিই বাইরে। মানুষ এত নিষ্ঠুর কি করে হয়? উফফ। ভগবান। কেন? আমিই কেন?
কি আর বলি... আর লিখতেও ইচ্ছে করছে না। আর এই লেখা একটা অভিশাপ। শুধুই কাঁটার মতন ব্যাথা দেয়।
ছাই। কি লিখতে কি লিখছি।
ভালোবাসা একটা অভিশাপ। নেশার মত ঘাড়ে চেপে বসে। জীবনের একটাই আক্ষেপ রয়ে গেল। সব নেশাই জয় করলাম। ভালোবাসাকে জয় করতে পারলাম না। আমাকে নিয়ে ছিনিমিনি খেলে চলে গেল। আমার কঙ্কাল পড়ে আছে। আমি হাসছি। হাহা।
ভালো থাকিস।
সৌম্য।
Friday, March 16, 2012
Notes from a living room: 29
Which world are you from?
Sometimes things are so very complicated. And all we can think about is, what if this had happened, what if that had not. A combination of possibilities, and at the back of our mind we still keep thinking the same old question, what if we were together? An outcome, which could've been the result of a series of possibilities taken together. But my bad, odds are so very low...and all against me. I can't change my fate, also not myself. It's our limitations that define us. I have mine. People have their own. But can't we be happy going beyond those? A habit of lingering on every occasion where action is needed on the positive side, and we are talking about the same thing that keeps happening at every opportunity. I don't know which world am I from, or for that matter I don't care if it's orthodox or not, it is what defines us, or atleast me. And staying within those boundaries...the question to myself is, can it be for one last time, for the old times' sake?
Sometimes things are so very complicated. And all we can think about is, what if this had happened, what if that had not. A combination of possibilities, and at the back of our mind we still keep thinking the same old question, what if we were together? An outcome, which could've been the result of a series of possibilities taken together. But my bad, odds are so very low...and all against me. I can't change my fate, also not myself. It's our limitations that define us. I have mine. People have their own. But can't we be happy going beyond those? A habit of lingering on every occasion where action is needed on the positive side, and we are talking about the same thing that keeps happening at every opportunity. I don't know which world am I from, or for that matter I don't care if it's orthodox or not, it is what defines us, or atleast me. And staying within those boundaries...the question to myself is, can it be for one last time, for the old times' sake?
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Weight loss – A tale of this century
In today’s world, where staying fit has almost become synonymous to hitting the gyms and staying in a healthy diet, losing weight has become a major phenomenon and a must-achieve objective among the mass of twenty-first century. We will see here how weight-loss can be beneficial, or how to carry on with it, and how does it really make us better and fitter people, both physically and mentally.
To start with, we will first see the advantages of weight loss. We all know that therapeutic weight loss, in individuals who are overweight or obese, can decrease the likelihood of developing diseases such as diabetes, heart diseases, high blood pressure, osteoarthritis and other diseases. Attention to diet and a healthy lifestyle in particular can be beneficial for reducing the chances of heart attacks in an obese individual. Also, losing weight means your blood pressure also decreases which makes sure that one is out of any cardiovascular disease.
Now that we know that how essential it is, we will now see how we actually make it happen. Most of us tend to think only a habit of exercise or reducing our food habit can make us lose weight. But that’s only partially true. Weight loss is a combined effort of doing exercise, having a balanced diet, drinking sufficient water, a good walking habit and preferably doing yoga skipping the afternoon television serial. As far as the food is concerned, oatmeal, brown rice, beans, broccoli, spinach, tomatoes, cucumbers etc. should be consumed more often and in a balanced way.
The golden rule in weight loss is to avoid foods that are high in sugar, which contribute to increased body mass, and are detrimental to overall health. Further, weight gain has been long associated with disproportionate alcohol consumption. Depression, stress or boredom is also associated with increase of weight. A recent study has found that dieters who got a full night’s sleep, more than doubled the amount of fat loss compared to sleep deprived dieters.
So, to conclude, we must say that losing weight is not just a one-time job and in order to stay fit one must continue his/her exercise, diet and other routines regularly. It’s all in the mentality of the person that carries him/her through. So let’s join hands in order to make this world free of obesity and make it full of better and fitter people full of energy and enthusiasm.
(Wondering what's wrong with my head that I'm writing these stuff in here? Well, I have started content writing and this one is my first sample article which I have sent to the 'Adssoft Internet Marketing', so thought about posting it here. Money is a concern, which is an obvious...but what is more, is that engagement with something is really important right now. So, for now fingers crossed for the ADS group to pick me as a content writer. If all goes well, I might end up having money in my account just by writing things that hardly matters. Yeah, well...for me atleast.)
- March 13th '12 (Reminds me my birthday is in ten days. A.L.O.N.E.)
To start with, we will first see the advantages of weight loss. We all know that therapeutic weight loss, in individuals who are overweight or obese, can decrease the likelihood of developing diseases such as diabetes, heart diseases, high blood pressure, osteoarthritis and other diseases. Attention to diet and a healthy lifestyle in particular can be beneficial for reducing the chances of heart attacks in an obese individual. Also, losing weight means your blood pressure also decreases which makes sure that one is out of any cardiovascular disease.
Now that we know that how essential it is, we will now see how we actually make it happen. Most of us tend to think only a habit of exercise or reducing our food habit can make us lose weight. But that’s only partially true. Weight loss is a combined effort of doing exercise, having a balanced diet, drinking sufficient water, a good walking habit and preferably doing yoga skipping the afternoon television serial. As far as the food is concerned, oatmeal, brown rice, beans, broccoli, spinach, tomatoes, cucumbers etc. should be consumed more often and in a balanced way.
The golden rule in weight loss is to avoid foods that are high in sugar, which contribute to increased body mass, and are detrimental to overall health. Further, weight gain has been long associated with disproportionate alcohol consumption. Depression, stress or boredom is also associated with increase of weight. A recent study has found that dieters who got a full night’s sleep, more than doubled the amount of fat loss compared to sleep deprived dieters.
So, to conclude, we must say that losing weight is not just a one-time job and in order to stay fit one must continue his/her exercise, diet and other routines regularly. It’s all in the mentality of the person that carries him/her through. So let’s join hands in order to make this world free of obesity and make it full of better and fitter people full of energy and enthusiasm.
(Wondering what's wrong with my head that I'm writing these stuff in here? Well, I have started content writing and this one is my first sample article which I have sent to the 'Adssoft Internet Marketing', so thought about posting it here. Money is a concern, which is an obvious...but what is more, is that engagement with something is really important right now. So, for now fingers crossed for the ADS group to pick me as a content writer. If all goes well, I might end up having money in my account just by writing things that hardly matters. Yeah, well...for me atleast.)
- March 13th '12 (Reminds me my birthday is in ten days. A.L.O.N.E.)
Friday, March 9, 2012
Are you lonely?
I sat on one of the benches at the lake place. It was dusk. And in the half light of the evening, a murky shape of a human came out of the dark as if from nowhere and sat beside me. Within a few seconds, in a very unique tone, from the deepest core of his voice and with an unusual high pitch, he uttered those words...
"Are you lonely?"
I looked at the man. His age could be anything between twenty-five to forty. He was wearing a pair of dark glasses, underneath which his yellowish eyes would be resting, I guessed. His hair was untidy, probably not taken care of over a week or so. His face was in dark, half visible and half not. And his clothes - rusty, gritty and old, gave him a look of a vagrant...though not a madman. The first impression towards him will always be repulsive, for sure, but there was something in his voice, and his words, which made me think.
"Yes, I guess." I keep it short.
Silence fell. And then it continued. But only to be broken by a chain of sentences.
"I fell in love with them. One after another. But soon I realised I wasn't meant for any of them. I realised I was too strong, or perhaps too weak for one single girl. Also, it was making me too vulnerable. So I left. I put enough hatred in their heart so that they go away, and don't come back, ever. And so they did. My plan worked. To become a winner I had to push everyone away, so that I don't have anyone to lose at all. And if I don't have anything to lose at all, who can stop me from winning?"
"So you have won then, having no one to lose now." I said, already taking some interest in him.
"It doesn't work like that. And I'm afraid I paid a heavy price to learn that lesson. Winning is not about getting rid of the people you attach yourself closest. It's about pulling yourself through with the world. Nothing can be achieved alone, and within a day. I lost the people I valued, and lost the life I wanted for me too."
"Things are going to be better, for sure." I said, trying to console him.
"You know, I know this place just like the back of my hand, but still I find a pain in my heart when I think about something every time I come here." He said.
"Something terrible happened here, isn't it?" I said.
He didn't answer. Rather, he looked at me, put his glasses on the bench and on that very moment the local train marked its presence by whistling from the other side of the lake and in the neon reflecting from the coupes of the train, I saw the man's face.
Before everything went dark, I remember a chill and a shivering came out of nowhere in my body and it went straight to my head. A sudden cry, thrown out from the core of my throat, fear and subtlety...and I fell senseless.
In the murky evening of a summer in the lake place, on one of the very disturbed moments of life, I saw myself.
-March 10th '12
"Are you lonely?"
I looked at the man. His age could be anything between twenty-five to forty. He was wearing a pair of dark glasses, underneath which his yellowish eyes would be resting, I guessed. His hair was untidy, probably not taken care of over a week or so. His face was in dark, half visible and half not. And his clothes - rusty, gritty and old, gave him a look of a vagrant...though not a madman. The first impression towards him will always be repulsive, for sure, but there was something in his voice, and his words, which made me think.
"Yes, I guess." I keep it short.
Silence fell. And then it continued. But only to be broken by a chain of sentences.
"I fell in love with them. One after another. But soon I realised I wasn't meant for any of them. I realised I was too strong, or perhaps too weak for one single girl. Also, it was making me too vulnerable. So I left. I put enough hatred in their heart so that they go away, and don't come back, ever. And so they did. My plan worked. To become a winner I had to push everyone away, so that I don't have anyone to lose at all. And if I don't have anything to lose at all, who can stop me from winning?"
"So you have won then, having no one to lose now." I said, already taking some interest in him.
"It doesn't work like that. And I'm afraid I paid a heavy price to learn that lesson. Winning is not about getting rid of the people you attach yourself closest. It's about pulling yourself through with the world. Nothing can be achieved alone, and within a day. I lost the people I valued, and lost the life I wanted for me too."
"Things are going to be better, for sure." I said, trying to console him.
"You know, I know this place just like the back of my hand, but still I find a pain in my heart when I think about something every time I come here." He said.
"Something terrible happened here, isn't it?" I said.
He didn't answer. Rather, he looked at me, put his glasses on the bench and on that very moment the local train marked its presence by whistling from the other side of the lake and in the neon reflecting from the coupes of the train, I saw the man's face.
Before everything went dark, I remember a chill and a shivering came out of nowhere in my body and it went straight to my head. A sudden cry, thrown out from the core of my throat, fear and subtlety...and I fell senseless.
In the murky evening of a summer in the lake place, on one of the very disturbed moments of life, I saw myself.
-March 10th '12
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